Thursday, September 16, 2010

my immortal(skulduggery's song for val)


I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it ears

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

Sunday, September 12, 2010

11 of september,2010...


is the day that i meet him..


dark brown hair....


dark yellow 'baju melayu'...


my cousin...


same age....


same name as my little brother...


seems friendly...


but also seems like hate me....








i know, i'm not much to look at....


he also learned to play a guitar from utube.


amazingly, from a very rich family.


yet my cousin...


which is shockin cause i always think myself as havin a normal, average life...


but i know....


my mom's side of the family hv many successful relatives...


including my grandparents...(but they just dont really show it).








i fall for another relative...


a second 1 too....


but i know, that a person like him,


will never fall 4 a person like me...