depressed

umm, ok... i'm in a lot of pressure right now...
umm, so, hi....
if u want 2 know, i am here(siber) without anyone's permission or notice...
oh and 2day's blog is gonna b a bit long

hmm...
i 'll try 2 remember the things i want 2 tell u guys ok?

ok, 1st, kallista, thnx 4 givin me mary hiashi's jokes, they were killers.

umm and thrice thnx 4 showin orius everythin, i owe u a lot.(actually ALL of u)

dragona thnx 4 commentin. same goes 2 geco and lunar and octa.
huh...

u know....
i really wish i can cmment with u guys again...
who know's mayb u guys can help me with my homework.heh...
cause i always do my homework at night. there's 1 time i didnt sleep the whole night at all tryin 2 fininsh my homework. usually i'm left with a few hours 2 sleep but, not that night. u know, i kindda wasnt focus in doin it cause i was so sleepy and also cause, i was thnkin what are u guys talkin bout right now and how much i'd b ok if i was talkin 2 u guys...

huh...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE EVERY1!!!!!
I HATE MY DAD!!!!!
I HATE MY MOM!
I HATE MY BROTHERS!!!!
AND THE PERSON I HATE MOST IS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I DESERVE 2 GO 2 HELL!!!!!!
IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!!!

thnk godness i'm in the ciber, or else i would...
sometimes i feel like i should b like a robot...
keep my feelins all 2 myself....
doin actly as told just like a dog...

god i'm so lonely and pethetic...

hmm...

hope SP 6 will come soon...
oh wait... i cant buy it, cause it's a month away from my big exam...


but then again, mayb iwill fail this test...
mayb i was just luck that i got flyin colours last time...
y should i even bother bout this year's big test...
no 1 believe i can do it anyway...


OH, sory guys!
i guess i was so caught up by....

ok well, this is actualy 4 my blog!
i hv a lot more complains than this so dont worry bout me ok guys lol!!!!
although i knw u guys wouldnt care.hehehe!
i dont hv much time.
dont hv enough money, ok, bye guys!
i'll try 2 write somethin more fun next time ok?!

i hate this year...

still in a siber...

heya guys!!!!!!
I MIS U SO MUCH!!!!

cant wait 2 talk 2 u guys either!( dont know when that'll b)

aww kallista, i'll sure u'll write somethin great!!!!
that's y the sp gang loved it!!!!

oh and my mom told me, when it's school holiday, u know, the long 1...
she said she's gonna send me 2 a knitting class...

and now lets hv a moment of silence 2 feel knights sorrow....
...


AAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
hey, i bought a comic, it's a story bout 4 guys...
in collage or university...
lastly, i of them had 2 head back 2 japan...
....
somehow that story reminded me a lot of u guys and me...
huhuhuhuhu...

did u guys know, while headin back home from my grandparents house, my mum was drivin and i was sittin beside her, the wind was blowin strong, but it felt nice....
i looked out the window, and suddenly i thought of u guys...
i was bringin up a conversation and we had fun talkin and some were makin jokes and we laugh 2gether....

...

hmm...
i really missed u guys...

i really felt lonely this year...
i felt lonely even more or should i say triple the times when i'm at my grandparents house...
u guys know right, i dont really hv any1 2 hang with.
my demonic cousin and my lil brother and my youngest brother with my 2 drama queens cousins...
my mom with my uncle and aunt and grandparents....

it's not just bcause ii dont really wanna hang with them but i CANT hang with them!
well, hope u guys r safe, well, and fun.

i guess that's it... c ya...
bye...
miss ya...
aloha...
dasvedania...
....
this is way 2 much isnt it...

well, bye!!!!

PS: i did the banana with choco chips muffins again...
...
i hv no idea y i wrote that...
mayb cause i really want u guys 2 try it...
hmm...