so sory every1 in derek's blog and also pak ushu!!!!

i wanted 2 talk 2 u guys yesterday, but i fell asleep...
i didnt mean 2!!!!


not that u guys would care whether i'm talkin 2 u guys or not but, i'm just sayin...

i'll try 2 come 2night...

i pray... 2 b with 'them' again...

Ohh Ohh Ohh .. and I pray
I just cant sleep tonight.
Knowing that things aint right.
Its in the papers, its on the tv, its everywhere that I go.
Children are crying.
Soldiers are dying
Some people don't have a home
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey
Can you tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray

I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
And when I sit up, cause my dinner is still on my plate.
Ooo I got a vision, to make a difference.
And its starting today.

Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey

Haven`t tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day

I close my eyes and pray
For the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today.
I just cant sleep tonight
Can someone tell how to make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and I pray

I pray ..

I close my eyes and pray ..



i really liked this song...
it's so nice!
it reminds me of my friends from derek's blog...
kindda weird considerin it with the lyric, but it's true...
i miss them so much!
i wanna talk 2 them!
b4 i hv 2 go 2 school!
i'm confused...
should i talk 2 them again, or not....

2day...

not gonna talk bout camp 2day 2 cause i really dont like writin that much...

although, i was really happy just now....
cause i kindda broken my own promise and went 2 talk 2 my friends from derek's blog.
how i missed them so much.
i was afraid at 1st 2 comment cause i was ashamed of my previous action towards them.
but they greeted me so warmly...
it was such a nice moment...
i really wish it wouldnt end...

...

oh common knight!
u'll b just fine!
it's not like ur gonna die...


...

(yes i am...
from the inside...)


oh well, thnx thrice 4 bein my follower!
ur the best!( all of my friends from derek's blog r the best...
but thrice is also special in his own ways)


thrice, if u read this,
can u plez tell orius that i'm sory i left and said mean things bout him(if i did)
while i was bein a big,fat jerk 2 u guys?
it would mean a lot 2 me.

miss y'll!

huh...

i got a new-old bed 2day...
i'm lyin on it right now.


i dont really feel like continue in my camp story...
mayb next time.

i keep on thinkin bout school next year...
how time flies...
i dont wanna go 2 school...
it sucks...

i wanna hv fun, and talk 2 my granduncle and comment with friends from derek's blog(which is not gonna happen cause i forbid myself from doin that)...
i really miss them...
i cant stop thinkin bout them...
it's so lonely...

aww well knight!
cheer up!
u'll b just fine!
chiayo!!!

wanted 2 write, but 2 lazy 2 do it...
sory.
bye!

The Camp

sory didnt tell u bout it yesterday,
i fell asleep.
this must b the camp's side effects...
we mostly sleep late and wake up early...
that's y i didnt really use the laptop late at night 4 the past few days.

so, let's start.(even though i'm feelin sleepy 2 right now...)

let me take my schedule...

here it is!

ok, here we go...

day 1:

we went 2 the registration place...
bla,bla,bla, i went 2 the bus...
after a while, we stop 2 hv lunch..
arrived at the jetty, which was shockinly(2 me) was a beutiful place...
and then we rode the ferry, 1 or some of the girls got sick and throw up...
i was worried that i might get sea sick 2 at that time...
so eventually we arrived at the island and we walked out of the ferry and with me, carryin my bag(which was as heavy as a baby elephant,if i do say so myself)...
we ride on taxi 2 the camp(but the taxi wasnt a car at all...it was a van)
when we arrive...
i was speechless....



the campsite was...
well, i dunno how 2 discribe it 2 u.
it has sandy floor, trees,
old,well, i supposed u can call it 'dorms'...
it was totally busted.
now i know what u're thinkin,
"it's a camp, it's supposed 2 be full with trees and nature and busted"

but no....
wait till u guys hear bout the toilet...
the 'sister' who was takin care of us, ask us 2 take our ablution.
so we went 2 the toilet....
my heart stopped...
i saw an unclean place inside a 'room'
and then i realised that the 'room' was actually the toilet...
there were 2 toilets in 1 'room'...
and i said 2 myself at that time...

"i dont think i can survive another min of this @#$% place...
I'M GONNA DIE!!!!"

the toilet was in cement...
so it was all grey...
and there were ...mould...i think...
cause it was green...
and it smells...
but in order 2 'survive there, i gotta ignore all that and still use them...
at 1st i thought there were only 2 toilets there at the back of my 'dorm', but it turned out, there were 4...
wow, did that make things better( this is a sarcasm, if u didnt notice)
imagine...
more than 70 girls, and only 4 bathrooms....

conclusion?
the worst toilet in my life...
far? NONE!!!

and we also have a 'nightwalk'...
i didnt know what it was at 1st until some1 told me(or mayb that was the instructor...yup! definately the instructor) who told us that we will b walkin in the forest alone and with no torch light...
imagine that....

now i'm jealous at the boys...
they mayb complain bout their beds, bout lizard poo, but they didnt even slightly complain bout their toilets...
which conclude us 2...
DAMN RIGHT!!!!
THEIR TOILETS R CLEAN!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!

ok, i dont like typin 2 much, or write...
and i'm sleepy, so i'll tell more bout my story 2morrow...


oh, and also 2day i discovered that if a rabbit tappin it feet repeatedly, i means their tryin 2 get ur attention or 2 warn u bout dangers.

nice...

ok, so bye!

I AM BACK BABY!!!!!

GOD!!!!
THE CAMP WAS A NIGHTMARE!!!!

i'm so sleepy now so i'm goin.
i'll tell bout it 2morrow.


oh, and nice trailer, derek....
but obviously, ur not the one who did it...
hehehehe

gettin ready 4 camp.

i'm at my grandparents house now.
it's 1 somethin in the mornin, so i'll be pushin off 2 the registration place at 7 somethin in the mornin...
so i hv 2 go 2 bet right after i write this blog.
on my way 2 grandparents house, my mom bout me LOTS, and LOTS of anime comics...
nice...
i thought the camp was supposed 2 b for 4 days...
but then my mom gave me the schedule 4 the camp, it says 5 days...



5 DAYS!!!!!



so i guess startin from 2morrow i will not b blogin 4 5 days...
again, so borin not talkin 2 my friends at derek's blog...
i wonder how y'all doin?
i really hope u guys r fine and not hurt (like u usually r)
and hope that u guys r keepin ur promise i ask u guys 2 promise.
miss u guys sooooooooooooooo much!
muah!
g'night!

my day 2day

i'm tryin 2 write a proper blog here so wish me luck...

ok, i think 2day, i'm just fine...
my mom ask us all 2 pack 2 go 2 my grandparents house and also 2 the camp...
not finish packin just yet though...
it's 1 somethin in the mornin so i think i should write that 2day i'm goin 2 my grandparents house.
and the ussual i get 2 b accuse by my mom agin.
so, nothin new really...
it's borin not talkin 2 my friends from derek's blog...
and the thought that i cant ask derek anymore question also made me feel sad and unsatisfied...
oh, and i also just read my magazine and i found an info bout a whale, with white fur, a trunk like an elephant and a ...i think... lobster's tail...
this r pics of it i took from google:



































huh...
i wish i can ask derek a favour...
oh well, here goes.

derek, i really hope that IF u r doin the skulduggery pleasant movie, can u plez finish it b4 2013?
i hv a very important exam on that year.
plez, plez, plez, plez, PLEZ!!!!

(what am i doin?
it's not as if derek's gonna read my plead...
oh well, let just make that a wish then)
=)

thank you octaboona, it's very sweet...

Octaboona Ambrosius- Paragon of The 17 Tiny Chocolate Fire Breathing Mice Whom My Collective Conciousness And Personality Is Divided Between Champion of the Purple Horde said...

Goodbye

Farewell my friend, my golden knight, my joy
I miss you more than any words could say
Although I never got to know you well
A little piece of my heart dies
To hear of your departure

My body racked with pain I weep
For a friendship never made
At the loss that rings inside me
My soul is sheathed in sorrow
To hear of your going

A tear rolls down my face
Ravaged with grief
The past is history
The future a mystery
But now is a gift
Every moment spent with you so precious
Although I barely knew you
My eyes well up with longing
For a shattered bond that never truly formed

The harsh winds of winter
Have nipped the bud of our friendship
And thus ceases a truly beautiful flower
That holds on only in my mind

And although you may never hear these words
I cry them out to the world
To halt the pain that we feel
At your going

At last I come to the hardest words I’ve ever had to say
But say them I must
As I finish my farewell
That you’ll never hear
A sob filled choked out cry
That masked the last words ever said between us
“Goodbye”

4 December 2010 10:32

for all the friends i've meet in derek's blog...

(Anastasia) We were strangers,
starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
what we�d have to go through
Now here we are,
and I�m suddenly standing,
at the beginning with you

(Dimitri) No one told me
I was going to find you,
Unexpected
what you did to my heart,
(BOTH) When I lost hope
you were there to remind me
this is the start

(Chorus) And life is a road
and I wanna to keep going
love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
life is a road
now and forever
wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
in the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

(Anastasia) We were strangers
on a crazy adventure
(Dimitri) Never dreaming
how our dreams would come true
(Both) Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(Chorus)

(Both) I knew there was somebody somewhere
that made love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
Ive been waiting so long
Nothings gonna tear us apart

(Chorus)

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

aint it cute?!

my immortal(skulduggery's song for val)

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it ears

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

11 of september,2010...


is the day that i meet him..


dark brown hair....


dark yellow 'baju melayu'...


my cousin...


same age....


same name as my little brother...


seems friendly...


but also seems like hate me....








i know, i'm not much to look at....


he also learned to play a guitar from utube.


amazingly, from a very rich family.


yet my cousin...


which is shockin cause i always think myself as havin a normal, average life...


but i know....


my mom's side of the family hv many successful relatives...


including my grandparents...(but they just dont really show it).








i fall for another relative...


a second 1 too....


but i know, that a person like him,


will never fall 4 a person like me...

reality

waaahhhh!!!!!!
school's gonna start!!!!AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant believe it!!!!
it's goona b another normal day....AGAIN!!!!!!!
y is reality soooooo cruel and mostly BORING!!!!!

dear blog

dear blog,
it's still holiday and i really wish this could last 4ever...
i want to tell u about a person that i like but,
since i only started to type on u 2day
i think mayb next time.

i saw other kids
did a blog but i think non of them type like this, right?
they write there feeling and secrets and stuff.
but i'm still gettin use to this.

for all the people who r reading this, i'm sory if my intro is boring
i'll try 2 find some thing 2 talk about next time.
bye!